So, how was NYE and the first week of the new year for everyone? I hoped everyone had heaps of fun amongst the pondering of the new year resolutions for 2008! :)
It's been a year since I last blogged! :P And my final moments of 2007 was spent trying to dodge confetti and balloons that fell upon everyone at St James' PowerHouse! The night itself wasn't that fun, but it was much more fun when Melvin Ho and DarLing JuLes popped over!
Earlier on in the night; when St James' Powerhouse was entirely empty!Moi amongst the other Melvin (Yeo), and my primary school friend, Eric... =)
In the early hours of 2008! I've spent my early hours of 2007 and 2008 with darLing JuLes!Predictably, like what most of my friends have said, I have already drank alcohol in the early hours of the first day of 2008! *LauGhs* It was 1/2 a bottle of "green tea"!! Good stuff... :P
Well, I've since a couple of interesting movies in the beginnings of 2008...
I felt that this movie was predictable, boring and blah...! Cos I reckon there isn't much of the plot that the scriptwriters could develop, so it's just pretty much the same ol' plot of part one... Although it's wayy better than "I am Legend"! That was a freakingly crappy show!!! =|
And over the telly, I managed to catch an old movie in the wee hours...
I remember that my brother had once downloaded the movie off the Internet long ago, but I didn't get a chance to watch it. I reckon he downloaded the movie simply because Christina Applegate was hott in the movie! But besides the point, I thought that this movie, albeit the fact that it is a typical Hollywood feel-good movie that makes girls in general go "Awww...!", in a way it does identify with me and what I am experiencing right now in my life... Not all bits, but just some parts...
"Christina: Don't go looking for Mr. Right. Look for Mr. Right Now..."
This movie, despite its fluffiness and how Cameron Diaz was just merely acting herself in real life in some ways (and getting paid quite alot, mind u!), it struck a chord within me for it mirrors how people try so hard to look for someone to be significant in their lives, and how, more often than ever, it backfires. In this case though, it's a happy ending, where Mr Right Now became Mr Right for Christina, Cameron Diaz's character.
But I wonder, how many times and what are the odds of that happening in real life? Probably one in a zillion? Or maybe it's like how many have said it before, "Love is here when you least expect it"...?
The newly-minted Bridget Jones status in me tells me that I am happy now, and it dawned on me today, while on my way home from a study session with my girlies that I've been unofficially single for exactly 3 months! I usually don't pay attention nor count the days, but I reflected and realised, while chatting on the phone with a friend that perhaps I'm one of those people that are happier single than when attached.
I mean, sure, there were the happy moments when I was attached and in a relationship. But maybe, just maybe cos I adore my freedom too much, or maybe because after being in 2 serious relationships that ended badly, I am somewhat jaded and disillusioned by the protocols or the rules and regulations that govern/or the social norms when being attached to someone. I sense fear in me that I have never sensed before ~ I used to fear falling in love and getting attached to someone, for there are so many unknowns, but I still gave things a shot, simply because I had gotten emotionally attached or that a bond was there with the other party involved, and I was happy and willing to work out the kinks and flaws of everything and anything with the other party.
However, maybe because of the disappointments and setbacks I've experienced thus far have left me somewhat fearful of trying, or giving things another shot, or simply just giving another person another chance for simply, it is just basically just a standard protocol of social interactions, or simply put, "Playing the Game"... But something in me is holding myself back from really playing the game this time around.
The irony herewithin is that Love isn't a just a game, like Snakes-and-Ladders or Monopoly. It comprises of a whole lotta things like honesty, communication, trust, sacrifices, blah blah blah... You get my drift...
At least with games there is an ending/finishing point which is a 50-50 chance of either winning or losing... However in this game of Love, as Michelle Branch and Santana once sang, it isn't just a definite 50-50 chance of staying together, or splitting up with a roll of the dice, for both parties involved would have no idea how things would turn out in the end, whether the finishing point would be a break-up, where both parties never contacts nor speaks to the other party ever again, or the sounds of wedding bells amongst the well-wishes of dearest family and friends...
The inner being within me still holds onto the fact that someone out there is meant for me, yet the jaded being within me brushes guys whom are interested with a wave of the hand, stereotyping the suitors as merely just another player playing the field...
I guess, as of now, I cannot imagine myself getting into another relationship that soon, for I am terribly drained out emotionally and mentally to be able to care, adore, love and respect another being at that intense a level... Besides, Ive too much on my plate to juggle now and it simply wouldn't be fair to the other party with my busy and hectic schedule...
Besides, looking from where things are going in the dating scene for me, I doubt I'd throw caution into the wind and hook up with some one I barely know! I guess one has to learn her lesson after failing miserably twice, mind you, when she decided to throw all cautions into the wind when she barely knew her ex-es... *LauGhs* I am such a walking contradiction! :P
May 2008 be a happier and smoother-sailing year for me and everyone else!
(~_~)
*HeaRts*
