I've spent my days busy at work, over random stuff at work...
Have been going out on girly dates with my Lovely darLinGs...
Have met up with JC and secondary school mates which I haven't met in eons!!
Have been going for classes with a furrowed brow... :(
Went to a gay club in SG and got "hit upon" (in the literal sense of the words) by a guy/gay whom claimed to be bisexual...
*PuKe*
Granny was hospitalised and discharged (just earlier today) from the hospital...
She's alright!
:)
Went back to Boiler Room for a fun night out and saw the ex bf...
Had an extremely long conversation with him, and how we're trying to remain as friends whom contact each other once in a while to see how's the other person doing...
(When my mind was telling me to say "NO" to remaining in contact, simply because I've been very hurt by him, and I wanna be protective of myself...
But mind succumbed to what the heart felt and wanted, and how despite all the disagreements, my heart's telling me to say "YES" to being friends...)
I thought I was strong enough to continously move on, and look forward to things... Yet, somehow, despite having trying so hard to move on, I've always felt something special between us that's unexplainable simply in words...
Admittingly, there were the nights when I thought of him and about us, and yet there were nights when I hated him to the core and was extremely angry, thinking how badly he had affected and hurt me...
Bumping into him at where we had first met was something totally unexpected and unanticipated... I thought he wouldn't acknowledge my presence, yet I felt a pair of eyes that were so familiar on me throughout the night...
It ended up with he and I walking for a long stretch just so he could buy a pack of cigarettes and gather his thoughts or whatsoever, which did make my feet hurt like crazzy...
It ended up with him and I talking for an extremely long time about how he's been doing, and how I was trying my darnest to fight back the tears, to not crumble in front of him; to prove that I couldn't be hurt by him again...
It ended up with him and I crying, and how he wants us to be friends...
Now, things are as grey as the skies recently, and for the first time in an extremely longggg while, my heart and mind are at polar opposites of thoughts... ...
"I've tried to need someone, like they needed me...
I opened up my heart but all I did was bleed... ..."
I need a Lifeline... ...
Something For The Pain - Bon Jovi
"Happiness, it's been no friend to me
But forever after ain't what it's all cracked up to be
Yeah, I had a taste, you were my fantasy
But I lost my faith when I hit reality
I don't need no Guru to tell me what to do
When you feeling like a headline on yesterday's news
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Loneliness has found a home in me
My suitcase and guitar are my only family
I've tried to need someone, like they needed me
I opened up my heart but all I did was bleed
I don't need no lover, just to get screwed
They don't make a bandage that is going to cover my bruise
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Pull me under (help I'm falling)
Run through my veins (night is calling)
To a place (feels like I'm flying)
Where I feel no pain (Christ - I'm dying)
Be the pillow under my head
Give me cover when I'm in my bed
Take me higher than I've ever been
Take me down and back again
Come to me, be my disguise
Open your coat, let me crawl inside
Come on, Come on, Come on
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you... ..."
Have been going out on girly dates with my Lovely darLinGs...
Have met up with JC and secondary school mates which I haven't met in eons!!
Have been going for classes with a furrowed brow... :(
Went to a gay club in SG and got "hit upon" (in the literal sense of the words) by a guy/gay whom claimed to be bisexual...
*PuKe*
Granny was hospitalised and discharged (just earlier today) from the hospital...
She's alright!
:)
Went back to Boiler Room for a fun night out and saw the ex bf...
Had an extremely long conversation with him, and how we're trying to remain as friends whom contact each other once in a while to see how's the other person doing...
(When my mind was telling me to say "NO" to remaining in contact, simply because I've been very hurt by him, and I wanna be protective of myself...
But mind succumbed to what the heart felt and wanted, and how despite all the disagreements, my heart's telling me to say "YES" to being friends...)
I thought I was strong enough to continously move on, and look forward to things... Yet, somehow, despite having trying so hard to move on, I've always felt something special between us that's unexplainable simply in words...
Admittingly, there were the nights when I thought of him and about us, and yet there were nights when I hated him to the core and was extremely angry, thinking how badly he had affected and hurt me...
Bumping into him at where we had first met was something totally unexpected and unanticipated... I thought he wouldn't acknowledge my presence, yet I felt a pair of eyes that were so familiar on me throughout the night...
It ended up with he and I walking for a long stretch just so he could buy a pack of cigarettes and gather his thoughts or whatsoever, which did make my feet hurt like crazzy...
It ended up with him and I talking for an extremely long time about how he's been doing, and how I was trying my darnest to fight back the tears, to not crumble in front of him; to prove that I couldn't be hurt by him again...
It ended up with him and I crying, and how he wants us to be friends...
Now, things are as grey as the skies recently, and for the first time in an extremely longggg while, my heart and mind are at polar opposites of thoughts... ...
"I've tried to need someone, like they needed me...
I opened up my heart but all I did was bleed... ..."
I need a Lifeline... ...
Something For The Pain - Bon Jovi
"Happiness, it's been no friend to me
But forever after ain't what it's all cracked up to be
Yeah, I had a taste, you were my fantasy
But I lost my faith when I hit reality
I don't need no Guru to tell me what to do
When you feeling like a headline on yesterday's news
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Loneliness has found a home in me
My suitcase and guitar are my only family
I've tried to need someone, like they needed me
I opened up my heart but all I did was bleed
I don't need no lover, just to get screwed
They don't make a bandage that is going to cover my bruise
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Pull me under (help I'm falling)
Run through my veins (night is calling)
To a place (feels like I'm flying)
Where I feel no pain (Christ - I'm dying)
Be the pillow under my head
Give me cover when I'm in my bed
Take me higher than I've ever been
Take me down and back again
Come to me, be my disguise
Open your coat, let me crawl inside
Come on, Come on, Come on
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you
Come on , Come on, Come on
Give me something for the pain
Give me something for the blues
Give me something for the pain when I feel I've been danglin' from
A hang-man's noose
Give me something for the pain
Give me something I can use
To get me through the night
Make me feel all right, something like you... ..."
