When... ...

Insecurity rears its ugly head, I tend to freak out at the insignificants and loathe myself...


I saw his eyes when he walked past her house, his gaze lingered for more than a second, I didn't flip or freak out there and then, but I uttered a silent prayer, hoping that it was merely the lack of lightings playing its tricks on my eyes... But he said it out loud that he would glance over as it was a habit of his...


I honestly hate it when they have had 8 years together, and Im sure there were some happy memories shared, despite how he says he doesn't recall happy memories...


Whereas for us, we don't even have half a year!! (>.<")


I hate comparisons and I loathe how the green-eyed monster is consuming me whole...


The nightmare that night after just merely added onto the green-ness of it all...

Darn insecurity!!!!

=(

Hmm... Crossroads...

"The road to happiness lies in two simple principles: find what it is that interests you and that you can do well, and when you find it, put your whole soul into it - every bit of energy and ambition and natural ability you have."

John D. Rockefeller III


But what if circumstances does not allow an individual the application of the 2 simple principles? Meaning which, the interest and passion is there, but the individual is unable to devote the entire soul, energy and ambition to it?


I hate uncertainties, and after meeting my Hunny Bee, and knowing that he's the best thing that has ever happened to me thus far in my life, I wanna be more grounded and stable, not just for myself, but for us and for a better future ahead... That is one very thing that I am certain of and about...


Which is why, sometimes, I wonder if I always adore, and have the bad habit of having far too much on my plate platter than I can handle!


*SiGh*










On a lighter note altogether, it's exactly a month to my birthday!!



*sMiLes*



My current birthday wish-list thus far is for Hunny Bee and moi to be as happy and as loving as we are, and for my loved ones to be happy, and of course... ...



A PINK lychee martini birthday cake!!

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(And for me to remain a forever youthful 21 year old! Hahs! =P)




*LauGhs*