Monday, November 17, 2008

On a Hiatus...

Have I been kidnapped to the island of Maldives and now am a beach bum, sipping cocktails while taking in all that's around me?


Have I been sent on an all-expenses-paid trip to London and shop in all the high-fashion stores, chilling over FishnChips, and tea with a dash of lemon, while planning for the trip to Stonehenge as we speak?


Have I found an airplane ticket along the streets one fine day, and it's a trip to Bangkok with a free hotel accommodation confirmation that came along with the plane ticket?


Or has Bernie been a nice soul and sent me on an all-expenses-paid trip to Jakarta so that he'd play host...?






All...



W-R-O-N-G!!!





I would be on hiatus, due to the upcoming exams!!! =(




But I promise that I'd be back with a Bang, with more pictures from the previous weekends of fun (Once DarLing Yun hands those pictures over!! :P ), and from the fun that I'd be having admist my exmainations at Eunice's wedding dinner!!




And post-examinations celebrations and fun for the month of December!!! Which means, Christmas is around the corner!! :D



This would be the 3rd Christmas as a Bridget Jones! :)
(The irony of how I actually had planned something special for the former bf to usher in the festivities!!)




Now that I'm flying solo, it would mean more time/ or less, depending on which side of the fence that you're sitting on! (Hahs!) For more partying/ fun times with my daRLings, and more office madness with colleagues of other departments!!!

(Im usually very busy during the festivite fortnight, where I get alot of calls from random people asking me where the party's at! :( And this year, I hope it's gonna be a blast!! Ladies' Night ya know!! :P )




For lovely friends, do keep a lookout at your snailmail letterboxes!!! :)





And Bernie's birthday's on the public holiday weekend!


I'm deciding whether to randomly spring a surprise on Bernie by popping by CGK/JKT during his birthday weekend!! Have been doing some research, but am clueless on hotels there! :( Does anyone have any hotel in Jakarta to recommend? I don't need smthg fanciful, just a room with decent enough of a bathroom, and a bed that doesn't have bedbugs!! :|

Besides, I get a feeling Bernie would drag me along to nightspots and what nots, so I wouldn't be sleeping much!!
:P





But everything's tentative, until he and I discuss this out!! :P








But admist all these plannnings, it's books and notes time once again!! It's the 3rd major exam (4 papers, and its all essays this time aorund mind you! So more brain cell killing!!) in 2008, and I cannot wait for them to end!!! Final examinations of 2008, and final lap of my Year 1 studies!!
:)






2008 is coming to a close!!





What a year!!






I had thought I'd usher the year end festivities with the ex bf and his friends, delivering turkeys on behalf of one of his very good friend and then going to one of the rooms in the hotels here in SG to usher in the fesitivities like what they would do every year!



I admit there are times when I do think about him, and the relationship, but I really do hope that with the new year, I'd be stronger than I am now... The song reminds me not just of him, but of how I cannot seem to be able to shake off that tingling feeling of just wanting closure in some form... But, like what Leona Lewis sang, I really hope that I'd be "Better in Time"... ...

=)










"你说会永远想念...
我知道爱情已经死掉...

你把自由还给了我,
我却无力可逃...
分分秒秒都想起你对我的好...


我想要一帖相思的解药...
被回忆关起来, 教人受不了...


你宣判我的无期徒刑,
孤单是我的背号...
我在漆黑的夜里,
看着心被爱焚烧...


你给我一个爱的监牢,
用思念做一副手铐...

我嚎啕大哭,
我颓废的笑, 外面有没有人听的到?


我早知道爱是一个监牢,
可是我不能不往里面跳...

吹寂寞的风,
守时间的孤岛,
心睡在冰雪里,
而明天只是个问号...

你给我一个爱的监牢,
用思念做一副手铐...
我嚎啕大哭,
我颓废的笑, 外面有没有人听的到?


我早知道爱是一个监牢,
可是我不能不往里面跳...

吹寂寞的风,
守时间的孤岛,
心睡在冰雪里,
而明天只是个问号...
"








Be back soon!






*huGs*











Friday, November 14, 2008

Perfection...

It's was the ex-bf that first let me listen to this song...


It had reminded me so much of my former relationship that I cried as I was listening to this song, and that time, the ex bf and I weren't an item yet... ...


Now, as I listen to this song, it only reminds me of our relationship... The irony of it all!!!!!



"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities." - Janos Arany




Then maybe perhaps what we had shared was not Love, for he had began to think that I was getting impossible, and how we were getting impossible... ... How he simply gave up trying, cos we were "too different for each other... ..."


It would be good if we could all fit into the imperfections of the significant other, or how it would be good to be similar, share similar interests, share similiar personalities... But, Love is about making compromises, sacrifices and having plenty of communication... Love isn't just about giving things up when things doesn't seem to be looking rosy... Neither it is about comparing... Love should be unconditional... I gave unconditionally, yet in the end, he tells me it's over...



He has made the choice, and it's been a month odd...
It's a battle everyday to keep the mind busy... There are some days where I seriously am soo busy that I don't even have time to ponder... Yet there are the days when the mind wanders...







Moving on this time around is so tough... But I know I'd have to slowly move on... ...













For... ...




The Love that he had wanted is simply just far too perfect...

No matter how hard I've tried, I'd never ever be able to perfect it... ...






Maybe, just maybe, the kinda Love that I thought I had, was nothing but just a dream, and like how when one is dreaming in their sleep, he/she would eventually have to wake up... ...




Sooner or later, I'd have to wake up and face the music... ...












"我曾经爱过这样一个男人,
他说我是世上最美的女人...
我为他保留着那一份天真,
关上爱别人的门...


也是这个被我深爱的男人,
把我变成世上最笨的女人,
他说的每句话我都会当真,
他说最爱我的唇...


我的要求并不高,
待我像从前一样好...
可是有一天你说了同样的话,
把别人拥入怀抱... ...


你身上有她的香水味,
是我鼻子犯的罪...
不该嗅到她的美,
檫掉一切陪你睡...


你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑...
你要的爱太完美,
我永远都学不会...


也是这个被我深爱的男人,
把我变成世上最笨的女人,
他说的每句话我都会当真...
他说最爱我的唇...


我的要求并不高,
待我像从前一样好...
可是有一天你说了同样的话,
把别人拥入怀抱...



你身上有她的香水味,
是我鼻子犯的罪...
不该嗅到她的美,
檫掉一切陪你睡...


你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑...
你要的爱太完美,
我永远都学不会...



你身上有她的香水味,
是我鼻子犯的罪...
不该嗅到她的美,
檫掉一切陪你睡...


你身上有她的香水味;
是你赐给的自卑...


你要的爱太完美,
我永远都学不会... ..."







Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Men spending $12,000 a year on women - News

Men spending $12,000 a year on women - News




Read about it!!



The irony of it all, I'd like to think that I'm the minority group whom have spent more than the former guys in my life, well, 'cept for the FilthyRichLiar obviously...



I have never gave it a 2nd thought when I splurged on shirts/cufflinks/gadgets/even mobile phone bills just cos they wanted/needed them... I was the type that would slip in a $10 note whenever the bf's wallet was empty/ when they hinted that they were broke...



The irony of it all was that whenever I'm in a relationship, I barely splurged on myself... I would think before buying a $40 pair of heels, when I readily bought shirts that easily cost twice as much...






Or to spend close to $600 on buying a briefcase just because I was looking from the mileage perspective of things in that his briefcase is damaged, and it was high time he gotten something much more presentable and formal, and that how it was his birthday pressie...




The irony is that the "mileage of the relationship" didn't last as long... *cynic smile*





Imagine! The shoe diva actually not wanting to buy heels!!!



Imagine!!! I blew close to $600 on getting a bag that I wouldn't be using (If I topped up a wee bit more, I could have gotten a Speedy for myself!!), and how I splurged an almost similar amount on getting a PSP eons ago, just because the jerk wanted one...



So imagine my shock when a colleague of mine commented that I was "high maintenance" earlier today!!



Me?!?!?




I admit I do have heaps of clothes, and tons of heels, BUT, most of them were bought during sales, since sales are like 24/7 throughout the year! Which explains why I've tons of discount cards, which does come in handy whenever I buy clothes... Else, there's always the haggling with those tiny shops... And since with the current craze of tops that makes me look preggers, I haven't been buying much, the only thing I admit spending alot on recently is beers and liquor, and obviously cab rides home...



Heels? My most expensive splurge thus far were not Christian Louboutins/Jimmy Choos... The most expensive pair of heels I have are from Aldo, and they were bought with birthday vouchers that my lovely friends gave me as a bday pressie in 2007... Most of my shoes are bought during sales or from those tiny shops in Far East Plaza... I don't even own Birkens, mind you! Although I have been resisting the urge to buy a pair or 2 with my gfs online... :-/


I don't even own authentic designer/"IT" bags, and the most expensive bag I'm currently using was a gift from the former bf (the most recent one) from Mango as my fake Fendi justified why it wasa fake bag... The Fendi Spy, the Loewe, the LV Speedy and the Chanel are all wants which are and have been on my list, but I wouldn't buy until I have more spending power...



Realistically, everyone's gotta have one of those luxe classic designer bags just because of the workmanship, and how it'd last years vs. my cheap bags that wouldn't last very long... The only thing that has a tag on me, is my employee ID tag (*LauGhs*), and the Kate Spade wallet which was a bday pressie from the most-recent-ex-bf this year...



For now, school fees are a major headache, so I've been resisting all urges to get a new bag or two... But I might succumb to temptation and get something cheap but classy-looking just because... ...






They don't match my shoes! :P








*LauGhs*






I'm kinda the "everything-just-dump-into-the-bag" kinda girlie, which means I adore hugeeee bags with sturdy handles and closures/zips, which probably explains why my bags usually weigh a ton!! :P



So me?!?!?! High Maintenance?!?!?

(My gfs all agree in union that i've been far too nice to all my previous bfs!!!)


*tHinKs*







What do you think? (O_o)






Share your views!!!!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Photos from the past weekends...

I know i know, this is bloody belated...



My Bad!!! Have been busy with the mundanes of Life (WorkWorkWork/ClassesClassesClasses/OutWithFriends/ChillingOutAtHome...) so I haven't had the time to update my blog!


My bad!
*PuLLs EaRs*
=P



My daRLing MinGYun and I dropped by at Loof 2 weekends ago for I had not been there before, and we wanted to be there to spy on someone... Not telling! :x And although the spying mission failed, we saw Denise Keller, the VJ from MTV looking scarily skinny!! I must say that Loof doesn't live up to its hype! It sorta reminds me of Phuture with heaps of underaged kids just sitting around admist a very mature crowd at the smoking section!!!





We then popped over to St James' PowerHouse for heaps of fun! And I was terribly happy to see my dearest singer of BoiLer Room, whom I have been having a huggeee crush on since last year!!! It was really fun to just drink, dance and cam-whore!!!
:D







I spent the following Wednesday meeting up with colleagues that I barely know from other departments at Zouk, for I had promised my German colleague that i'd show him around, and that he had heard so much about Zouk... So being the nice tour guide, I met him, not knowing that he'd be bringing along another German colleague, whom is on pretty well terms with my Big Boss!

*YiKes*

There goes my image at worK!

*LauGhs*

Although he did promise me not to let the cat outta the bag! But I must say he was shocked at the way I gulped down my shots that quickly!!! :P


The entire lot of us!!! :)








I went back to St James' Boiler Room last weekend,to see "you-know-who" perform, and I got to know DarLing YuN's ex-colleague, a very pretty Sherrel!!! :)

My darLing hasn't sent me the pictures yet, so i'd update, hopefully, really soon!!!

Of all horrors, my gf was pretty depressed over her current relationship problems (why are we all having relationship problems and issues?!!?!) and she got pretty dead stoned drunk and she puked on my hand in the cab we were in!!! Thank Gawd that she only puked on my hand, and the nice cab driver had heaps of plastic bags!!!



So, me being me, I dragged her to my place, where she puked like a crazzzyy woman all over the void deck of my block!!! I woke up my entire family and we managed to put her nicely on my bed!!! What a night/wee hours of the morning!!!





The loonnnggg Deepevali weekend was pretty much relaxed thereafter, chilling over drinks with darlinG YuN, talking about our relationship issues and problems... i've known her for 7 years and counting, and I know she's lost for she'd been with her bf for 8 1/2 years... Suddenly, my problems seem so tiny, so I just listened and offered my advice! Whatever happens in the future, I just wish and want to see her happy!! =)





WorkWorkWork over the short work week saw me really tired out at work! Okay, I admit... my Big Boss wasn't around the previous week, so we took longer tea and lunch breaks...! :X

But when she returned, I was sooo pissed off and disappointed with how things at work are going! :( I sent her a longgg longg email and she hasn't been talking to me since!

*ShruGs*


In all honesty, the job is easy, it's the shites that I have to deal with just because I have an inefficient superior whom tends to throw everything he cannot handle my way! And I thought my ex-Boss was bad enough...

I have to experience the notion of working under someone that does not manage me!! He merely utters "Please support me..." all the time! I cannot do everything that's his job else I would be in his position and earning his pay! I'm already tied up with my own projects yet I have to chair meetings and write minutes on his behalf, so much so that time flies and nothing of mine gets done!!! :(

I just wished he would take the end of the stick and get things done!

I am really at my tipping point!!!!

(-_-")










N'uff about work! TGIF came and it was Halloween!!!!
We were supposedly to go to Zouk and scare ourselves silly in dress-up costumes, but my gfs decided to dress normally the last minute!! :(
But I still decided to go in my Lil' witch hat looking all sweet, which I think flopped terribly! I don't look sweet anyways!
*LauGhs*


Plans were almost scrapped cos everyone was tired out from work, and how something happened to me that made me feel totally wrecked, sad and teary(that's a story for another day!); and how everyone and anyone seemed to be heading down to Zouk somehow put a damper onto our moods! :(

I sorta told my gfs that if we weren't meeting, I'd drive myself crazy facing the 4 walls in my room!


Being the sweethearts that they are, they met me up at Boiler Room in hopes of wanting to cheer me up! But surprisingly, my mood improved by leaps and I was entertaining them and making them LOL then mopping around! And Boy was everywhere crowded!!! My poor toes got trampled on like crazy!!! :(









More photos up soon! As soon as my gf sends them over! I promise!!! :)





It's gonna be mid-week Wednesday soon!!!






*SmiLes*