Monday, October 29, 2007

New haircut!

Well, I finally chopped off my locks on Friday, and Im not really satisfied with my new hairstyle!


The fringe came out looking wayy too weird and short for my liking and I've to wait for it to grow out again!! Apparently, I told him 1 1/2 inches to be chopped, it seems as though it's 3 inches shorter!!! =(


I might wanna get my hair curled the next time around! any suggestions? =)


And silly me, I'd always take pictures and all, but the camwhore totally forgotten to take shots of me with my new hairstyle! =(



Me and Ungku (the photographer of a clubbing site)! Look at the fugly hair! :(



Surrounded by love and my fugly hair! =(
The darLings liked my hair though, although I think I look like a frumpy aunite!!



Yeah, I went out with my girlies as they knew that I was unhappy and going through a rough patch and all...And I didn't drink much, cos I knew I was sick, and I sounded like Rod Stewart, only that he can sing with that raspy voice of his! I can only croak now! =(
And my phone's batt went flat wayy early on in the night! Which was really bad cos I couldn't camwhore much with my friends! =(


So, off I went to see my doctor on an early Saturday morning, and I was given, as usual, very strong medication that totally knocked me out for the entire weekend! =( Was supposedly to have gone down to an ex colleague's place for a belated Hari Raya celebration, but with me being so sick and not wanting to spread the "love"/germs, I gave it a miss! Hurhur! =(


Now, I'm feeling yet again so drowsy and sick! (My medication's kicking in!) that I promise I would update about my weekends once Im feeling not as woozy and sick! =) Imagine all the phlegm being greenish and yellowish...Yeah, you get the drift... :P



To someone imperfectly special: I guess you've received the snail mail from me; I didn't expect a reply from you, and true enough, you didn't reply, you wouldn't even send me a SMS, telling me that you've received the card from me. Though it's heart breaking, the lack of contact pulls me in both ways - further away, but yet wanting to be back to those days... I know i cannot ask nor demand for anything; Thought aplenty goes through my mind; Is there someone new already or that what we once had shared was just a figment of my imagination? Or that you totally are avoiding me cos you feel nothing but hatred for me? The ball's now in your court, but I sense that you dont wanna do anything, but the lack of contact or your choice of not contacting is far worse than the fever I have... Medication's only taken to make me tired and drift off to sleep, so I can take my mind off you... Are you being benevolent, or are you being selfish? I dont wanna guess, but yet, I keep guessing... I guess I've only have myself to blame for the hurt Im going through and have caused you...Karma! You told me to give you a time frame, but how long would you take? Or is it merely just a convenient excuse to lessen the guilt? Let me know if it's no longer me that you desire ~ I can take the pain, for what's pain than us being this way?










"When your day is long
And the night
And the night is your's alone
When you think you've had enough
Of this life
Hang on

Don't let yourself go
'Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts
Sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night hold on
Hold on (hold on)
If you feel like letting go
(Hold on)
If you're sure you've had too much
Of this life
Hang on

'Cause everybody hurts
Sometimes
Take comfort in your friends
And everybody hurts

Don't blow your hand
Oh-oh no
Don't blow your hand
If you feel like you're alone
No, no, no, not alone

If you're on your own
In this life
The days and nights are long
If you're sure you've had too much
Of this life
To hang on

Yeah everybody hurts
Sometimes
Everybody cries
Sometimes
Everybody hurts
Sometimes

Everybody hurts sometimes

So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on

'Cause no you're not alone..."

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Today's October 24th...

It's a day before mummy's birthday.


It's a day when I woke up feeling feverish - I am SICK and having a Fever! =(


It's a day when I'm gonna do something..., which might make or break things, but I'm gonna have to try... ...


*Wish me Luck!*





(Will update about the weekend when Im feeling better!)


Sorry folks!



*sNeeZe*

Sunday, October 21, 2007

My horoscope for the day...


Today's Horoscope (October 21, 2007)

Think to enjoy life more instead of complaining about your problems. Short moments of fatigue or depression; but don't let yourself go too much: as soon as you react, you'll recover tonicity and enthusiasm. You'll have the possibility to bring large-scale projects to a successful conclusion. Continue to cultivate useful relations, you'll sooner or later need them; but drop the relations which seem to you to cumbersome or not quite trustworthy.



Im absolutely tired out from the activities and the happenings of the weekend...And the weekend is coming to a close! Awww...! =(


I will update about my fun weekend soon with aplenty of photos, so, watch this page!!



*YaWns*




*HeaRts*

Thursday, October 18, 2007

My idyllic Thursday...! =)

So, as random boredom starts crawling into a person's bloodstream, that particular person becomes very bored... Well, in my case, it's due to the fact that I've been pretty much dateless!! (*Gasp*), so I have been spending much time at home...



I dunno about other people, but to me, spending time at home can be, in some ways, therapeutic! *LauGhs*


I kid you not!


Why do I say so? Well, I get to spend quality time with Mummy dearest by going on morning jogs and walks with her around the East Coast Beach! Followed by a lovely local breakfast, and shopping!!! Grocery shopping! =P


Returning home after that is a routined round of me listening to her tell me about the storylines of various random drama serials! FYI, my mummy dearest is very much contended with sitting in front of her whopping 42 inch plasma TV (which she so proudly selected after my previous telly died, and made my daddy pay for the new telly! *LauGhs*) from 10am in the mornings! On average, the telly is left switched on throughout the day, sometimes until wee hours! Which explains the surge in the utilities bill... ...



And of course, being dateless means spare time on your hands, so you would try to...



Make a Caesar salad!





My HUGE serving of salad with alot of greens! I used multi-grain bread as croutons, cos I couldn't find any in the supermarket! (The key to getting the bread as cripsy as croutons is to...toast the bread lar! :P ) The egg yolk unfortunately, came off the egg white cos it wasn't really hard boiled yet...! =(



The finished product!! With nuts and bacon bits as the final top garnish! =)
Say it looks yummy!! Say it!!!
*LauGhs*

I used iceberg lettuce, 2 other types of lettuces, the purplish cabbage (I dont remember vegetable names well! :P), baby carrots, mini tomatoes, one sliced hard-boiled egg, a slice of toasted multi-grain bread as a crouton substitute, nuts and bacon bits as garnishing! And of course, a Caesar salad dressing that I finally found at Cold Storage! (I used the creamier version of dressing cos I like my sauces creamy!) The more local supermarkets like NTUC, etc didn't stock them! The lady at the counter even asked me what's Caesar salad! *LauGhs*




One would also have time in the later bit of the afternoon to chat with friends on MSN and poke friends on Facebook! I had a lovely chat with DarLing MingYun and Bestie Sara via MSN since yesterday, and time sure does fly! Ive known DarLing MingYun since 2001 and Bestie Sara for 11 years! And what DarLing MingYun said to me did make sense and talking to these 2 babes made me realise that it's indeed the truest friends that really know best, and want the best for me! I heart you babes!! =)





And I guessed that, somewhere along the way, I became preoccupied with picking and collecting stones so much so that it became an obsession somewhat...Maybe it has to do with my character; I'm pretty laid back and easy-going when it comes to friends, cos as one mellows and age, one would generally wanna chill out with friends and avoid conflicts... My mantra being "What matters is just being happy!" when Im out with my friends... So more often than not, some stones take my presence for granted and bullies the hell outta me! Yes! Amazingly, I often let my friends get their way, cos I'm honestly, too nice and indecisive, so they often take my indecisiveness as doing what they wanna do... So more often than not, I become some sort like a doormat, if that's the way to describe it! *Hurhur* =(


pZ shall be nicer to herself and her lovely true friends around her from now on!

=)




And on a cheerier note...


I went to the temple to get a fortune lot the other day, cos I've been pretty much down on my luck recently! Boy was I glad that the lot sounded good, it did really give me a new found sense of optimism about life! =)



All's good, 'cept for the bit about family not being safe and that "Things lost wil never be found..." *HurHur* =(


And obviously, I went to help the local economy a wee bit by shopping after that!! *LauGhs* I bought a nice-looking blue top for Mummy! Very chic, it's got blue blings sewn on it! Very fashionable now! She seems to like it! Yayy!! =) I couldn't resist so I had to get one in black for myself! *ChuCkLes* I bought a pair of pretty PINK and gold earrings at a 20% discount and sliver hoop Tiffany and Co inspired earrings as well! I wanted to get this gold off shoulder top, but it was too huge for my liking, since regular jogs around the beach have seen me lose 3kg in like 2 weeks! =D Maybe I shall visit another outlet to get the top...Heh... =P



I popped by Bestie SaRa's mummy's place for some chitchats and Hari Raya tidbits on Wednesday evening and it was real fun to just catch up!! =)


Barney the gay purple dinosaur LURRVES me!! (Pardon my foundation! But Barney seemed to adore it so much! *LauGhs*)

Us 11 years on! I remember those weekly shopping trips and those Neoprint days! And I look like a ghost with my far too fair foundation! *LauGhs* And my Tiffany and Co inspired silver hoop earrings! I like! =)

*Makes a mental note to go for a hair trim soon!*



And I think I'd be heading down to Zouk this coming weekend for some fun cos it's gonna be friends' birthdays! And Ah Boon's wedding dinner this Sunday! (pZ still dunno what to wear!!! *LauGhs*)



This weekend should be fun!! =)



Yayyy!!




*HeaRts*




I am still missing someone imperfectly special still though... pZ's lost a diamond, and maybe once lost, it can't be found... *Remembers "Things lost will never be found.." quote from my fortune lot...*

*siGh*



Oh well, "Que Sara Sara" then...!



On a sidenote, Happy 60th Birthday Daddy! =)

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The shoewhore speaks!

I have one thing to say...


Charles and Keith
has really fugly shoe designs for their latest collection! It is so ghastly unappealing and un-stylish!


And they've decided to go "upmarket" by producing a line that's higher priced and I reckon mainly meant for the working ladies... Obviously they're trying to make quicker bucks from a different segment of the market... But, those shoes are so fugly that I cannot imagine anyone wearing them for work! So what if they're exclusively available at only a few outlets?!? It looks uncomfy, esthetically unappealing, and unfashionable!!I mean, their designs are rip-offs from the high end brands, but this collection's "rip-offs" aren't done in good taste at all!


Novo's styles are not my alley, I adore Aldo, Nine West, and VNC to bits, but nothing in their latest collections have caught my eye...yet...



And of course, there are the Manolo Blaniks and Jimmy Choos...But for those, I'd definitely need a shoe sponsor...


Any volunteers? Christmas is afterall, just 2 months away!

*LauGhs*



i need new shoes!




I haven't added any shoes to my collection in almost 2 months! Having a strained/sprained ankle doesn't help my love for heels either! BooHoohoo!



*CrieS*




=(




(Mummy would beg to differ though! *LauGhs*)


Monday, October 15, 2007

又是失眠。。。

又睡不着了。。。



咳。。。!

Friday, October 12, 2007

在这个农历九月初一的夜晚。。。

我又失眠了。。。


深夜的宁静是孤独和寂寞的。。。


空虚的心情,是很难用言语来解释的。。。


我原本很幸福快乐,但是我亲自把我的幸福和快乐给赶走。。。


无心的伤害,酿成了今天的后果;真是因果报因啊!


对不起!



现在的我,得为我的将来作打算了。。。
已经很老的我,曾经有过很多梦想。。。


但为了爱情,我曾一切都放弃,为的是想要当一个幸福的小女人。。。
原本以为生活就如此简单,但是另一方一而再的令我感到心碎。。。


当心完完全全,彻彻底底地被破碎之后,我收拾了心情,
第一次感觉到重获自由的滋味。。。



内心里的小女人,对感情还是有着渴望和期待。。。
外表看似坚强的我,却对感爱情产身了恐惧感,
只因为我不想再一次的被伤害。。。



他的出现,让我开始有真正幸福的感觉。。。
他的体贴,他的贴心深深地打动了我的心;
使我有一种对爱情又有了期望的感觉。。。



但,人常说,好景不长在,
只因为我一时的任性和野蛮,
我将我梦寐以求的幸福给赶走了。。。



互相给彼此空间去检讨和思考,
是一种煎熬;因为没人能预知未来,
也没人知道这空间会把我们拉近或拉远。。。


人常说,若是你的,那他终究还是你的,
若不属于你的,强求和勉强到头来他终究也不是你的。。。
虽然我们之间还是对另一方有着很多的感情,
就让时间来证明这段感情是否会开花结果吧!





"不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有..."



突然之间,这句名言让我感触很多!




若开出花,结了果的话,
希望能让你感受到我的改变,
我的成长!



现在的我们得去追求我门独自的梦想。。。


加油吧!
我们一定会成功的!








我要的幸福


"为, 爱情付出...
为, 活着而忙碌...
为什么而辛苦?
我仔细纪录...


用, 我的双眼;
在, 梦想里找路...
该问路的时候,
我不会装酷...


我还不清楚,
怎样的速度...
符合这世界,
变化的脚步 ?



生活,像等待,
创作的黏土...
幸福, 我要的幸福,
渐渐清楚...



用, 我的双眼;
在, 梦想里找路...
该问路的时候,
我不会装酷...



我还不清楚,
怎样的速度...
符合这世界,
变化的脚步 ?


生活,像等待,
创作的黏土...
幸福, 我要的幸福,
渐渐清楚...




梦想, 理想
幻想, 狂想
妄想,
我只想坚持每一步...




该走的方向...
就算一路上,

偶而会沮丧;
生活是自己,

选择的衣裳...



幸福,
我要的幸福, 没有束缚...


幸福,
我要的幸福,在不远处..."