Wishing it was still the weekend...

It's gonna be a rambled update as I'm pretty exhausted, and Ive got work + school = a long day ahead tomorrow, and it being Monday = Bluesy day...

Oh well...

For all those whom have sent love and concern via SMS-es and over MSN, thank you for the concern - I'm still, unfortunately limping slightly, and stairs are a nightmare still... There are the moments when I feel the knee going to buckle on me anytime... Thank Gawd for railings on stairs, lifts, and obviously everyone's love all around. They make sure my knee's properly settled in public places before they take their seats, and Sweet Bubbles was absolutely sweet in waiting for me while climbing that horrendously lonnnggg flight of stairs over coffee last Friday, and how she would patiently wait for me to be done in the loo... :)

I feel blessed to have wonderful friends like her around, so much so that I feel guilty/somewhat bad that I haven't been in regular contact... :( ... I'm always surprised on how tight a bond we have despite not meeting up regularly due to the busy schedules, I just wished that I had a tighter bond with the rest that were present.. I always seemed to be the one looking at things from the outside when we were in school together... But I truly appreciate them for inviting me out...

*Photos to be uploaded soon! I promise!*

This weekend was the traditional Mooncake Festival, and BabyLove and I went mooncake shopping for my parents and his aunt... I guess it has got to do with the gloom over the current global situation - inflations, political instability and what-nots, the mooncake varieties were surprisingly less compared to last year's, and not having Hainanese mooncakes was a tad bit disappointing... :(

What was even more disappointing was how Manchester United surendered an early lead at the Kop's... Drats!!!! :(

What I really yearn for at this point in time is that I really wish for more time to be able to get my personal stuff done... School stuff has taken a step back with the piling workload... I don't dislike my job, I just don't find immense satisfaction from it, probably because in the huge corporation, I am merely a digit, an employee id number, and nothing significant... The colleagues are nice and all, it's just the work that is wearing me down...

The big boss is apparently impressed with my performance while my Superior was on holiday that she has tasked me some major duties which aren't part of my job scope... If you were in my shoes, would it be fair to be given more job responsibilities (on top of the never-ending daily routines), without giving greater power at the workplace to be able to make decisions? And not getting any pay increament for that matter? (-_-")

I wished for more time to be able to get my ever-messy hair snipped... I wished for more time to rest so that my knee would heal - the wound isn't closing, and I'm honestly worried...Sometimes the pain gets so unbearable, but I still have to grit my teeth and bear with the pain to get the work done... (-_-") I wished that the knee would heal so I can get back to jogging... It doesn't help that I am expanding sideways as time goes by...Hurhur..! :(

I wished that Monday wouldn't come so soon...

Drats, it's already Monday!! :(

The Love's Post Birthday Weekend Celebrations Thoughts...

Last weekend was spent over a very dilapidated chalet for BabyLove's birthday celebrations... Shopping with him for the birthday BBQ necessities wasn't as bad as I had thought - BabyLove was surprisingly not that irritated or frustrated as I thought he would be.. :) Maybe it has got to do with the fact that he's getting older... *LauGhs*


Predictably, he got drunk on the 1st night of the weekend itself... To see him puking and all was a lil' worrying, as I knew how bad the hangover would be come the next day. I didn't get alot of rest since the beds were all taken up by his bunch of friends, I only managed to catch some shut-eye for only about 1 hour... Darn the hard liquors! (I tend to have a immune system against hard liquor + beer...) I woke up to the fresh post-rain scent in the air in a very uncomfy position in a very uncomfy chair, with a knee that seemed to hurt a lil' more than usual throughout the night... I just wished that somehow, his friends could have been a wee bit more considerate, I mean, I can't complain since I was the one that fell, and I can't fault anyone but myself for getting stitched up... But, I just wished that they had left the Love a decent place to at least get some rest... Poor BabyLove had to settle himself on the cold hard floor and had a terrible throbbing headache from the drinks and the lack of proper rest the next day... I just wished that his friends were more understanding, but I guess that most beings, in general, are self-protective by nature and I alone, cannot change the world... *Jaded smile*




I was the busybee, rushing back home (Since it's a 3 bus stop's ride away from my place) while everyone else was busy getting a tan in the pool, doing up the curry for the birthday barbeque and getting the pasta done... Had to pick up the cake and macarons as well and I had no idea how I managed to pull it together with less than 1 hour's worth of sleep + a limping knee... Hahs! Thank Gawd that Mummy was around to hep me out! :)



The sudden rain midway through the festivities dampened the mood, or at least mine... Seeing BabyLove's friend spilling the box of macarons made me real pissed off, and I was honestly at my tipping point, but I just had to do the PR thingy and smile... I just wished his friends would be less nonchalant about stuff, but then again, it wasn't his birthday... ... I guess I'd not volunteer nor lift a finger unless they ask should there be another celebration for one of the friends...



I just wished and hoped that BabyLove enjoyed himself... It wasn't as great as I had imagined it to be, coupled with the sudden heavy downpour, but I hope he was happy...



With that being said, I was somewhat disappointed over his reaction over his birthday present. Truth to be told, I had wanted to get him a decent-looking briefcase since he has been looking for one. I had been doing the research, rushing out during days when I finally can leave work earlier to look at some briefcases, and limping out on days when I was supposedly to be resting at home to source for a nice-looking briefcase... I was disappointed when he said that I shouldn't had spent so much, and he assumed that I had wanted to buy something so costly as a measurement/value of him to me...



Truth to be told, I wasn't planning on sticking to a budget for BabyLove as my ex partner of 3 years had always made sure he stuck to his $100 birthday gift budget for me, which was always depressing; for all I got birthday and Christmas presents that were shitty/crappy, (with the exception of the MP3 player that I had demanded during one of the Christmas...) and I always had to look on in envy at my friend's presents from their significant others... I still remember how he had told me proudly that he had not exceeded his $100 budget into buying me a stainless steel necklace for my birthday, and how he even managed to haggle a 10% discount for the present... Imagine! I was only worthy of a stainless steel necklace, nothing more than those cutlery one would use for their dinners... *Shakes Head* I don't even wanna get started on the other ex partner that gave me a pack of lies and my all-time fave "IT" bag that turned out to be nothing more than a fake like him... *Shakes Head again*



I just didn't want anyone, especially the Love to feel disappointed to feel that he is measured by a number/budget of a certain kind... All I wanted was for him to have a memorable birthday...



I never have budgets for presents for the significant people in my life that matters, it's always a case of quality over quantity... I naturally didn't want that for the Love, and since his current briefcase was somewhat in a bad state of things, I spent on getting him something more durable and in my opinion, what he wanted in terms of design and I thought he would get alot more mileage from receiving something he would be using on an alomost daily basis than to get something that he would place in a forgotten corner a few months down the road...



To get mocked at by his friend over this weekend over drinks was a little too much to handle... At that very moment, I questioned myself if I am doing the correct thing by getting a present which I thought he would really appreciate... I guess the problem is that I don't feel that he appreciates the effort, which I am tad disappointed about... =I



What would you have done had you been in my shoes?


Do you have a budget for a gift for someone of special significance to you?


Is getting a pricey gift as a birthday present for that Special Someone, in your own opinion, measured by how long a couple has been together, or by a budget? Or would all of these issues not be considering factors for you?





*tHinKs*