It's been a year odd since the last time that particular portion of my Profile details have been left untouched...
Yet a while ago, it has been updated to a "Its Complicated" relationship status... Although to most people it would mean the end of a beginning, both parties involved have a great feeling that this tough and rough start would blossom into something intensely magical... =)
Yes, for the uninitiated, the tiny little spark had became a huge bonfire, engulfing most of the fears and obstacles along the way - He has made me smile, in more ways than anyone has ever ever succeeded in doing, and yet in the same moment, he makes me feel so much warmth and Love than I have ever experienced that I keep asking myself whether someone up there had finally listened to my prayers that I had thought were once-forgotten... So much so that I keep telling myself to rein in the magical sparks, and to have a better grip on the whole situation...
I fear for the unknown, for I had made promises to parents and myself to get over 2010 without having to worry them by getting attached as to them, their lil' girl should fully focus on getting that degree before anything else... But when Love comes full speed crashing like huge waves, a wave after another, how would it be remotely possible to push that Love away and to get on with Life lamenting that what was once around had escaped so unfortunately from one's grips?
I never knew what real Happiness and contentment was until meeting him, getting to know him better, listening to his comforting voice, and having long conversations about the daily mundanes and absolute notingness... Being in his presence on long drives home, and being surrounded by laughter that I need not fake or pretend about...
Finally I could take a break from cheering people up and allow myself the luxury of being teased mercilessly into being all happy and cheered up, yet at the same time, reciprocating the favour by cheering him up in the very next moment... =)
A feeling which I had never ever experienced in my previous failed relationship has been creeping up onto me - Open honesty and communication... I am finally able to communicate on a level which I feel that my views are listened and respected, and how I can finally be completely honest about my past, the present and the future... Its really indescribeable as to the "wow-ness" and how the butterflies in my stomach feeling has taken this Happy lil' Pink Piglet to an extremely delightful place, where I finally can flash that dimply smile of mine across the table, or just next to me, knowing that the feelings felt are mutual and reciprocated.... =)
What is impeding us from taking our relationship to the next step are due to inner issues which we both have, which I would not really wanna share, except that I have trust issues which needs resolving, and as well as finding the opportunity to tell the Parents that their lil' girl is in Love and how it feels awsomefully right this time around... And for them to trust me and Him into working things right...
I am still getting to know him better but my Heart has been taken, truly, madly and deeply... ...
Yet a while ago, it has been updated to a "Its Complicated" relationship status... Although to most people it would mean the end of a beginning, both parties involved have a great feeling that this tough and rough start would blossom into something intensely magical... =)
Yes, for the uninitiated, the tiny little spark had became a huge bonfire, engulfing most of the fears and obstacles along the way - He has made me smile, in more ways than anyone has ever ever succeeded in doing, and yet in the same moment, he makes me feel so much warmth and Love than I have ever experienced that I keep asking myself whether someone up there had finally listened to my prayers that I had thought were once-forgotten... So much so that I keep telling myself to rein in the magical sparks, and to have a better grip on the whole situation...
I fear for the unknown, for I had made promises to parents and myself to get over 2010 without having to worry them by getting attached as to them, their lil' girl should fully focus on getting that degree before anything else... But when Love comes full speed crashing like huge waves, a wave after another, how would it be remotely possible to push that Love away and to get on with Life lamenting that what was once around had escaped so unfortunately from one's grips?
I never knew what real Happiness and contentment was until meeting him, getting to know him better, listening to his comforting voice, and having long conversations about the daily mundanes and absolute notingness... Being in his presence on long drives home, and being surrounded by laughter that I need not fake or pretend about...
Finally I could take a break from cheering people up and allow myself the luxury of being teased mercilessly into being all happy and cheered up, yet at the same time, reciprocating the favour by cheering him up in the very next moment... =)
A feeling which I had never ever experienced in my previous failed relationship has been creeping up onto me - Open honesty and communication... I am finally able to communicate on a level which I feel that my views are listened and respected, and how I can finally be completely honest about my past, the present and the future... Its really indescribeable as to the "wow-ness" and how the butterflies in my stomach feeling has taken this Happy lil' Pink Piglet to an extremely delightful place, where I finally can flash that dimply smile of mine across the table, or just next to me, knowing that the feelings felt are mutual and reciprocated.... =)
What is impeding us from taking our relationship to the next step are due to inner issues which we both have, which I would not really wanna share, except that I have trust issues which needs resolving, and as well as finding the opportunity to tell the Parents that their lil' girl is in Love and how it feels awsomefully right this time around... And for them to trust me and Him into working things right...
I am still getting to know him better but my Heart has been taken, truly, madly and deeply... ...
"Romance and all its strategy, Leaves me battling with my pride...
But through the insecurity, Some tenderness survives...
I'm just another writer, Still trapped within my truth;
A hesitant prize fighter, Still trapped within my youth...
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides..."
~ "Sometimes When We Touch" by Dan Hill.
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