“Little, vicious minds abound with anger and revenge, and are incapable of feeling the pleasure of forgiving their enemies.”
~ Lord Chesterfield.
It's amazing how when a relationship ends for reasons unknown until much later on, the messiness of having to settle outstanding issues, be it monetary, or personal; is always tough and an emotional turmoil...
It would be cool to just clear things up and out like they were bits of trash, like how we would not second-think when dumping some used tissue papers.
However, the heart is made of complexities that no one can ever fanthom...
I used to have trouble burning bridges when push came to shove, but the first time I ever did that and established a better, newer and good-er person when I dumped the Cheater of an ex; He wanted a break-up, but he didn't wanna be the bad guy, and began to treat me like crap, like yelling on top of his lungs into my phone, telling me I have 10 freaking minutes to book 2 tickets for a movie, in the exact row and seat number which he wanted else he would not meet me and I wouldn't need to go "home" later in the night...
(Home was his place, not a place of warmth and love, I had always felt like a trapped prisoner within those 4 walls, where his Mum was like the #1-ranked security guard, keeping tabs on me even when I went to the kitchen for a drink... *Sigh* )
Then on, I knew how to draw my lines clean, as sharp as my wit could ever muster...
I've made it a point to not remain in contact with any previous boyfriends, and made sure I stuck to that promise, for I don't want them to come hounding me at random moments in my Life, wanting revenge, a listening ear, some sympathy when they got dumped subsequently... I didn't need to know how he was doing, how Life was treating him after how badly they have treated me - The betrayals, the Lies, the assumptions of taking me for granted...
I didn't need those emotional bagges upon me when things ended...
So I've always never replied their random phone calls, their nonsensical sms-es and how I made sure they were blocked out of my Life in the virtual world...
I burned my bridges clean, walked on, and never looked back... ....
Thus far, it has worked out fine! :P
However...
The ♥'s former flame and him had issues which they had left unresolved and kept hanging, for it was afterall, a relationship of half a decade, which I am sure they have been through the highs and the lows together...
It wasn't The ♥ whom gave things up ~ She did.
She decided to turn her back on him when she cheated, and left him alone.
And like how Hell hath no fury than a women scorned, she now is so vengeful that she doesn't want The ♥ to find Happiness...
Monetary disputes aside, she has gone so viscious to not grant our wish of moving on with our Lives and to transfer a property's ownership to us.
For knowing a woman scorned, if what can't be her's, no one else can have it...
Trip to the Lawyer's seemed bleak, but I knew I had to be strong for Baby, and for us... =)
In the goodness of my heart, I am hoping that she would reconcile her thoughts after the fury dies down and to think rationally and give us her well-wishes...
Like how I am ready to give her my most sincere wishes for her Future as well...
Afterall, one must always have Faith and Hope! :D
I might not know you, but our Lives have been intertwined by a Man whom you used to adore, and whom I now Love, cherish and wanna build a future and a Lifetime with ~
You were the one whom took him for granted, and he patiently stuck it out with you throughout the half decade...
You were the one whom embarked on another relationship with another person and left him in the dark, until he had to find things out the hard way...
You were the one whom let him down, yet you turned around, and made his Life difficult... And now, you do not mind losing money that could buy you a house with your future partner, and move on with your Lives just for a shallow moral victory!
How could anyone be so vicious to someone whom she proclaimed to have loved and cherish?
Why must you be so cruel to not allow anyone to move on with our Lives?
What good would it be to you to see us being upset by your viciousness?
Haven't you ever heard of Karma, and what goes around would eventually turn one full circle and return to haunt?
To sow a seed of hatred, and then letting it grow into a seedling, and then a tree?
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe;
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
I hope she will find it in her heart soon to allow her seed of hatred to cease, and to graciously accept what has been offered legally, and to allow all of us to move on with our Lives...
Looking at how defeated and jaded Baby was earlier was extremely heart-breaking to see... :(
I have never ever seen him so doubtful, so defeated... :(
If I could take away his pain, I would in an instant...
Yet, I, unlike the Charmed Sisters, do not have the power to Heal... :(
I only have a heart that's true, and a pair of listening ears, words of comfort; and hands that would hold him tightly through all of Life's obstacles...
I will be strong for You & for US, Both!
Don't give up!
Gambaette Baby! ♥
Nobody trips over mountains.
It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble.
Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.
~Author Unknown
When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
~Author Unknown
♥
~ Lord Chesterfield.
It's amazing how when a relationship ends for reasons unknown until much later on, the messiness of having to settle outstanding issues, be it monetary, or personal; is always tough and an emotional turmoil...
It would be cool to just clear things up and out like they were bits of trash, like how we would not second-think when dumping some used tissue papers.
However, the heart is made of complexities that no one can ever fanthom...
I used to have trouble burning bridges when push came to shove, but the first time I ever did that and established a better, newer and good-er person when I dumped the Cheater of an ex; He wanted a break-up, but he didn't wanna be the bad guy, and began to treat me like crap, like yelling on top of his lungs into my phone, telling me I have 10 freaking minutes to book 2 tickets for a movie, in the exact row and seat number which he wanted else he would not meet me and I wouldn't need to go "home" later in the night...
(Home was his place, not a place of warmth and love, I had always felt like a trapped prisoner within those 4 walls, where his Mum was like the #1-ranked security guard, keeping tabs on me even when I went to the kitchen for a drink... *Sigh* )
Then on, I knew how to draw my lines clean, as sharp as my wit could ever muster...
I've made it a point to not remain in contact with any previous boyfriends, and made sure I stuck to that promise, for I don't want them to come hounding me at random moments in my Life, wanting revenge, a listening ear, some sympathy when they got dumped subsequently... I didn't need to know how he was doing, how Life was treating him after how badly they have treated me - The betrayals, the Lies, the assumptions of taking me for granted...
I didn't need those emotional bagges upon me when things ended...
So I've always never replied their random phone calls, their nonsensical sms-es and how I made sure they were blocked out of my Life in the virtual world...
I burned my bridges clean, walked on, and never looked back... ....
Thus far, it has worked out fine! :P
However...
The ♥'s former flame and him had issues which they had left unresolved and kept hanging, for it was afterall, a relationship of half a decade, which I am sure they have been through the highs and the lows together...
It wasn't The ♥ whom gave things up ~ She did.
She decided to turn her back on him when she cheated, and left him alone.
And like how Hell hath no fury than a women scorned, she now is so vengeful that she doesn't want The ♥ to find Happiness...
Monetary disputes aside, she has gone so viscious to not grant our wish of moving on with our Lives and to transfer a property's ownership to us.
For knowing a woman scorned, if what can't be her's, no one else can have it...
Trip to the Lawyer's seemed bleak, but I knew I had to be strong for Baby, and for us... =)
In the goodness of my heart, I am hoping that she would reconcile her thoughts after the fury dies down and to think rationally and give us her well-wishes...
Like how I am ready to give her my most sincere wishes for her Future as well...
Afterall, one must always have Faith and Hope! :D
I might not know you, but our Lives have been intertwined by a Man whom you used to adore, and whom I now Love, cherish and wanna build a future and a Lifetime with ~
You were the one whom took him for granted, and he patiently stuck it out with you throughout the half decade...
You were the one whom embarked on another relationship with another person and left him in the dark, until he had to find things out the hard way...
You were the one whom let him down, yet you turned around, and made his Life difficult... And now, you do not mind losing money that could buy you a house with your future partner, and move on with your Lives just for a shallow moral victory!
How could anyone be so vicious to someone whom she proclaimed to have loved and cherish?
Why must you be so cruel to not allow anyone to move on with our Lives?
What good would it be to you to see us being upset by your viciousness?
Haven't you ever heard of Karma, and what goes around would eventually turn one full circle and return to haunt?
To sow a seed of hatred, and then letting it grow into a seedling, and then a tree?
I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe;
I told it not, my wrath did grow.
And I water'd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with my smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.
And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,
And into my garden stole
When the night had veil'd the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch'd beneath the tree.
~ William Blake; Songs of Experience - The Poison Tree.
I hope she will find it in her heart soon to allow her seed of hatred to cease, and to graciously accept what has been offered legally, and to allow all of us to move on with our Lives...
Looking at how defeated and jaded Baby was earlier was extremely heart-breaking to see... :(
I have never ever seen him so doubtful, so defeated... :(
If I could take away his pain, I would in an instant...
Yet, I, unlike the Charmed Sisters, do not have the power to Heal... :(
I only have a heart that's true, and a pair of listening ears, words of comfort; and hands that would hold him tightly through all of Life's obstacles...
I will be strong for You & for US, Both!
Don't give up!
Gambaette Baby! ♥
Nobody trips over mountains.
It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble.
Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.
~Author Unknown
When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
~Author Unknown
♥
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