“Lovers and madmen have such seething brains, such shaping fantasies, that apprehend more than cool reason ever comprehends.”

~ William Shakespeare; A MidSummer Night's Dream.

Love is like chocolate,
Sometimes dark and bitter,
Sometimes sweet and nutty...
Yet,
It's always so sinfully good,
although being superbly fattening...



In another breathe,
Forrest Gump once taught the world how...

"Life is just like a box of chocolates,
You're never gonna know what you're gonna get..."

Many a times, we all are humans searching for Someone, I had given up the goal of the majority population of searching for a particular Someone;
Love, in particular, for I had truly given up wanting to spend time to make things work, for there weren't deserving guys around to make me want to make the effort...


Then like how Forrest Gump taught us in that box office smash hit, one would never know what you would be getting when you are totally not expecting anything...


Baby GlueGun came into my Life, totally unexpected, and I struggled deep within me for I never ever thought I was able to fall in Love with an individual that quickly...
When I knew him better, his past, his Life; I made decisions and choices after thinking things through... For his past made him who he is now, and I would still cherish and adore him as we walk hand-in-hand into the future...


Yet, the insecurities surrounding me has seemingly brought the happiness to an abrupt stop; made the cynicism in me take total control...

We have not come to a mutual ground with regards to issues;
For one, he thinks it is perfectly alright to meet chicks he knew online as friends...
Whereas I think otherwise of wanting to collect friends as though I was collecting stickers...

Without any hesitations, he said...

"If can't be Lovers, we can always remain as friends..."


I almost wanted to collaspe into a heap, retreat back into the little girl that I was that rainy night when I only had beers, painkillers and sleeping pills for company...



I have never ever felt the feelings I am feeling now in my previous relationships,
I do not know how to fight against the torrid of tears streaking down my cheeks...
I do not know how to comfort myself;
Words have seemingly come to a standstill...




I know it is unfair and extremely selfish of me to add onto his worries and burdens, which are of greater severity than mine;
But I am, afterall, "just a little girl, standing in front of a little boy, asking him to love her..." ...




I'm probably like his doggies, I crave for the attention and for the tenderness which he showers onto his dog, so much so that I sometimes admire the doggie;
He gets all the affection, yet when I feel insecure and have tears rolling down my eyes, it takes him eons to realise, and for him to offer words to soothe, and some concern...

Yet despite it all... ...






"For aught that I could ever read;
Could ever hear by tale or history;
The course of true love never did run smooth.

And yet, to say the truth,
Reason and love keep little company together nowadays."

~ William Shakespeare; A MidSummer Night's Dream.



I will press on, and never give up on him,
For the very reason for us to have found each other, getting to know each other and then be an item has been a rollercoaster ride;
We have done our fair shares of pushing the other party away;
We have cried and we have smiled and been through quite a tumultuous period of time, despite how short a time we've been officially together...
For despite his flaws, he makes me feel imperfectly special, and how the little things he does puts smiles on my face...



It takes 2 hands to clap, and I know, for sure, that we would work hand-in-hand, and iron out our differences and our opinions...


May we come to some form of consensus soon, in some way or another...



For Baby GlueGun ~

I'm sorry for being overtly insecure, for having a less trusting heart than the majority, and how I am deeply insecure about bits of your thought process...


I'm sorry for adding onto your woes when you already have a mountainful to deal with...


Please forgive me!


May you be optimistic and think positively about the issues that have been troubling you ~

We will conquer them all, hand-in-hand!



I Love You!

♥