Life's LiL' Ironies...

Is when you have time to reflect, you'd realise that the writings were on the wall way before the crux of the issues on hand exploded, like a ticking time bomb that was waiting to erupt on me...

I've since realised, and am admitting to the fact that I am still hurting over the very recent failed relationship. But, I am definitely taking tiny lil' steps in moving on, for this time around, the hurt is immensely far more hurtful than ever before...

I know that in time, I will be okay, I will be back to the silly me... In fact, some parts of me are back to the same old... Like how I randomly make jokes that made my gfs LOL and cried from laughing, how I am gushing over heels, and over that HOTTtt singer/performer at Boiler Room (At St James PowerStation, and much more gaga-ness was added when he sang Jay Chou!! *SwooNs* :P)

There are the times when I face my four walls, wondering why Life has to play such a twisted and cruel joke on me, to let someone so special come by my way, yet fade away after such a short time... How Life is an irony when all closest gfs are experiencing troubled times in their relationships... Yet, looking at them, I know in some ironic way, I am blessed...

Was he worth it? Could I see myself with him a couple of years down the road? Was it a blessing that the relationship had ended wayy before more ironies of Life came into the picture?

I am still searching for the answers, but yet, I know, at the end of the day, all these answers would not matter as I know that I am blessed... ...

I am blessed, for I have regained a quiet confidence that was sorely missing in the months that we were together - the irony of Life was that in order to make the other person happy, I seem to have lost that spark in me... I gave up being somewhat myself, just so that I could fit into his social life, and to fit into his image of what an ideal partner should be... Maybe because Life is now an independent one, I no longer have someone as a pillar of support and strength whenever I need a listening ear or just someone to be there... I have to be there for myself, and as well as family and friends who need me to be there for them...

I am blessed, for I have lovely family and friends who are there to comfort, and to laugh at my silly jokes and random nonsense... To listen whenever I am feeling down and jaded, and to offer their opinions, or just being there when I need them to be there...

I am blessed, for despite the workload and how I am stressed out with work, I have hilarious colleagues of other departments that allow me to rant about work to them, and they geniunely offer some advice, and how their silly jokes over tea during the tea breaks makes me laugh... For the free teas and coffees that they'd always buy for me, and how they'd call me just to remind me to knock off work earlier, by telling me that the ghosts of our office appears after 2100 hours (*LauGhs*) ... How they'd never fail to make me see things from a different angle, and how they have made me infamously famous within the walls of my office building... *Rolls eyes*

Life's greatest irony is that when the Love of my twenty-something years suddenly left me fending and facing all my greatest fears alone, I am somewhat sanguine-ly happy and , yet in a way, I am still in mourning over The End of our relationship...

Life's greatest irony is that... ...

Everybody Hurts sometimes... ...








"When your day is long ... and the night
the night is yours alone
when you think you've had enough... of this life, well hang on.

Don't let yourself go
cause everybody cries
and everybody hurts... sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong.
Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go (hold on)
when you're sure you've had too much... of this life, well hang on.

cause everybody hurts... sometimes
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts.

Don't blow your hand. Oh, no.
Don't blow your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you're not alone

If you're on your own... in this life,
the days and nights are long
when you sure you've had too much ... of this life, to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes, everybody cries.
Sometimes
And everybody hurts ... sometimes.

And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.



Everybody hurts.



You are not alone... ..."