Through the Rain...

It's been rainy and breezy the past few days, and it being rainy means that I can either sleep like a log (Christmas log! It's 34 days to Christmas!) cos it's so cooling and un-stuffy at nights, or that I can be wide awake, for the roof above my head and bed has been leaking, so imagine the pitter patter sound that keeps me wide awake...! Which probably explains the eyebags being a bagful, pun intended, these days...


I remember when I was young, and still living in that really huge house of mine, I would have nights when I couldn't sleep, which explains why I've always been such a night owl...I would often let my thoughts wander and daydream (Or nightdream, whichever way you look at it...) about the future while looking into the vast dark skies that was sometimes filled to the brim with shiny little stars, and sometimes just a huge piece of dark blanket with hardly any twinkle in the vast sky out there with the faint snores of my brother as company...


The thoughts that went through my mind were typically whimsical thoughts, of how I yearn to be able to provide and support the family and being a successful person, and obviously falling in love, and having a "happily ever after..." kinda romance story.., where they would be the nonsensical silly arguments, but at the end of the day, it would still be one happy squabbling couple...


"Sweet dreams are made of these, who am I to disagree...? You'd travel the world, and the seven seas; Everybody's looking for something..."


Life is so amazing in such a way that there would be times when you're kind of looking for something and that you'd think you know you're correct about something, yet subconsciously, your mind tells you the polar opposite...Perhaps its a hunch, or the intuitive sixth sense, or instinct, I cannot pin-point the exact word to describe it; Yet sometimes, your gut feeling tells you that you're correct, yet sometimes, it might just be that one is thinking too much of stuff...


I cannot help it that I am a natural pessimist that sees the glass as being half full, and that I am a natural worrier... Or maybe its got to do with the fact that I always try my best, be it for friends, or for issues in life, so much so when it all falls apart, I get disappointed and I try to protect myself even more, for I am fearful of getting hurt once more. But with each setback I have experienced, the experiences have made me much stronger than I have never imagined possible.


Likewise, in this case, I have made decisions, and with each passing day I know that it's been a long road discovering things about myself and of other issues that really matter to me. It has been an eye-opener, for I really have no absolute idea where I found the intrinsic strength to bounce back into the game of Life, and even helped out my dearest friends who are going through patches recently.

I guess the setbacks that I have experienced along the way have made me become stronger, and more aware of issues around me. Of course there are the lovely friends whose talks and chats with me made so much sense and that they have indirectly helped answered the questions that I probably had all along, but didn't seem to have the correct answers, or that I was just simply afraid of knowing the truth and answers, cos I knew I was instinctively correct... Their encouragements and advices did contribute to me becoming stronger... I am just surprised at how quickly I have adapted and stood up to the challenges that were waiting for me...! =)


Like in this rainy season, where when the rain and stormy weather clears, there would be clear blue skies ahead! And I now am beginning to see that clear blue skies, and even the rainbow ahead of me! =) Granted that there would be times when there might be rainy and stormy skies again, but come what may, I hope that I can make it through each shower there is and become a much stronger, better and happier person! =)


Thank you, to all my lovely darLinGs! Thank you for listening, for having an open heart, for not judging, for being honest, for your encouragements and for helping and wanting me to become better! I *HeaRt* you all! =)







"When you get caught in the rain.
With no where to run.
When you are distraught and in pain
Without anyone,
When you keep crying out to be saved.
But nobody comes,
And you feel so far away.
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone it's okay;
once you say.


I can make it through the rain,
I can stand up once again.
On my own, and I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.


And if you keep falling down,
Don't you dare give in.
You will arise safe and sound.
So keep pressing on steadfastly.
And you'll find what you'll need to prevail;
Once you say.


I can make it through the rain,
I can stand up once again,
On my own, and I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.


And when the wind blows,
And shadows grow close,
Don't be afraid,
There's nothing you can't face.
And should they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say...


I can make it through the rain,
I can stand up once again.
On my own, and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain...


I can make it through the rain...
And stand up once again,
And I'll live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain...
Oh yes you can,
Oh you're gonna make it through the rain... ..."